Out of the Closet

I am in the process of trying on all my clothes.  Ohhh, this is an arduous undertaking, let me tell you!  The reason is twofold really.  As many of you know, I have gained a lot of weight in the past year.  The reasons why are a whole other post for another time, but the fact remains.  I'm not happy about it, but I've made peace with the situation for right now.  Also, I've really re-structured my nutrition, the way and times I eat everyday.  I still work out sporadically despite my best efforts, but that's better than not at all.  As usual, though, I digress ...

As the few people who can claim to have ever been my roommates can tell you, I have an abundance of clothing.  I mean, I have a veritable shitload of every category!  I love clothes and fashion, for one thing.  And then there's the whole matter that over the past few years my size has fluctuated so very much due to medicines and my illness and stress and such (that's right, another post!).  So my collection of clothing is just every size and shape imaginable.

Because I've been home the past few months, I've gotten into a lazy habit of wearing and re-wearing the same handful of newer, favorite clothes all the time ... leaving the rest (some other favorites buried and forgotten, I've discovered!) smashed together in my closet.  It has been in the back of my mind that I want to organize them, perhaps storing the smaller clothing for a time when maybe I have lost some weight again.  If it's something I no longer like or think I'll wear, then I plan to give it to my mom, who makes regular donations to places that give clothing to those in need.  But like I say, this idea of organizing has been pushed to the back of my mind in favor of ... oh, I don't know, any old excuse:  sleep, the holidays, a migraine, cat care ... anything really.  I'm afraid it's one of those things that I want to be done but I don't want to do.

Well, I started the process this week, pushed along by the fact that I have a trip coming up.  Also, I am just sick of the disorganization.  This is how I operate; things pile up or wait, I procrastinate or whatever ... and eventually, I snap and won't deal with it anymore, and I just do it.  I'm going to Hawaii in the middle of March ... yes, I know, how fun and glamorous and whatever, but hold your applause.  I was actually tricked into agreeing to this particular time, this particular trip.  I suppose I should explain how such a thing could possibly be anything less than amazing and exciting.  I guess I wouldn't believe it myself unless I lived it.  So in an upcoming post, I will tell you that story too. 

I am finished trying on all my short-sleeved shirts, about half of which did not fit any longer.  Bummer.  Fortunately, my closet is hyper-organized by style and season, etc.  so that I can now try things on in the same manner.  Now I've moved on to dresses and next skirts.  Dresses is almost finished, with really only a few of my extensive collection fitting me.  That's a real bummer, because I have amassed a smashing dress collection, if I do say so myself.  So I just keep focussing on the fact that soon I will have a pretty, organized, neat closet in which everything fits and can be chosen quickly and efficiently each day.  And when I travel this spring, it will be easy to figure out what i have that I can wear and pack, and what I still need.

Speaking of which ... I have always loved to rock a bikini!!  In fact, I just don't like to wear a lot of clothes!  It sounds funny, maybe, yeah!  But so true.  I never wear socks, unless it's winter, and unless I'm going OUT in the winter.  Even then sometimes I just slip on my boots over bare feet.  I don't know what my deal is!  I would rather wear shorts or pants and a bikini top or tank top.  I always keep my apartment super-warm, so I can do this.  I often forget that not everyone is into being summertime warm like I am, and therefore I forget to dress for the weather when I go to other people's houses.  I would do best living in California, Florida, some place like that, for sure.  And because of my preference for bikinis and barely-there outfits, well, I really would like to be at my "ideal" weight and fitness.  It just makes sense. 

The closet thing sucks though, I have to admit.  I mean, I don't even like to try things on in the store before I buy them!  I don't know what it is; I just don't like it.  But it must be done, so I try to make it fun, or do it in parts.  Tonight, for example, I am watching a fun TV movie ("The Pregnancy Pact" ... I love made-for-TV sensationalistic movies ha ha!) and trying a few things on at each commercial.  One thing is good:  I have already found that I have more clothes to wear in Hawaii than I previously thought.  I went into this thinking I really had to buy practically a whole new wardrobe.  Ugh!  Not only expensive, but time-consuming and upsetting!!!  I think swim gear is my main need. 

Back in my closet now!